It can be hard to write. I have a lot of drafts started, some on complicated topics. I’m not very good at putting my ideas together in an organized manner. It makes sense when I explain them but putting them in order for someone else is another story.
How have I been doing lately? Not much happened in April. I had plans to travel again but the weather kind of put me down and forced me home. I made a bit of peace with myself, at least food-wise. It’s interesting how sometimes, I feel like the efforts I’m making aren’t worth a dime and it just takes too long to see any rewards. But then I look back and I see it’s already been weeks. Months technically if you look back at February, when I started trying to control my cravings.
There have been up and downs. Downs that have taken me deep, but ups that have been able to put the median above average in the end. It hasn’t been too bad. It’s already the end of the semester, the end of my second year of university. I am kind of glad for that.
I am glad to be coming home soon and stay for a while. It means I’ll be able to see my friends and family, and actually enjoy being around. I haven’t got the chance to do that in now two years I’d say? So yeah, I’m looking forward to that. I just have to run the last miles that separate me from that moment, and I need to run them well. Like a marathon, it’s not the distance that matters but the steady pace.
So I know what lays in front of me, at least for the next three months. It’s doable. I just need to keep my head up and bite through the bitter moments.